What's In My Mind

To be a chip of the block...

2011-11-04T12:23:00.001+08:00

I always wanted to be like my father on earth and indeed my Father in heaven is training me now to be like both of them...

Next step to leadership...

2011-11-04T12:08:00.003+08:00

And a week away from CLIPS... *nervous*

Another challenge...

2011-10-13T15:41:00.004+08:00

...God has called me to up my ante on leadership. But I fear I am only barely doing well with ushering and roller-coaster husbandhood... Need to get off the board and onto the books...

Random thought of the day...

2011-09-30T16:26:00.003+08:00

I just realized I always day-dream about having lots of money so I can buy this and that things or when something bad has happened, dreamt of having super powers to correct this and that. But I have never or seldom day-dream of doing hardwork or chores to better someone's life or day-dream being Jesus-like in deeds...

...guess I'm to materialistic thinking :P

Most things done...

2011-08-22T21:41:00.001+08:00

Yup, glad the house renovation part is over plus and the cleaning... now is just to get itsy bitsy stuff for the home and concentrate on the wedding part...

IE is the dumps...

2011-08-09T12:47:00.003+08:00

As weeks go by, I find IE is not able to run many scripts as opposed to the other browsers like FireFox or Chrome. Time to jump ship...

More spine...

2011-08-09T12:47:00.001+08:00

To add to the bookshelves... one extra pass the leadership book...

One step at a time...

2011-08-09T00:53:00.001+08:00

I'm moving too fast... I am breaking up too fast... I get nervous too fast... chapters of the book going by too fast... it's just to fast for me...

Life pass me by...

2011-07-26T16:57:00.002+08:00

The world is spinning crazily fast and the next thing I know everyone is whole and complete...

Romans 12:12

2011-07-26T16:56:00.001+08:00

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer."

Thank you to my fellow CG brother.

Colossians 3:12

2011-07-26T00:21:00.001+08:00

Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.

Something new I've learnt...

2011-07-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

A punching bag of others past and present failures...

How is one going to grow in the Lord if one does not want to let go of their baggages and nail it to the cross? I have learnt it over and over again during BMEW and Easters and I am still learning to nail more. The question is, will you?

How to lead...

2011-07-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

...when one is always critisized of it's action whether good or bad?

/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\

2011-07-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

Always getting bitten back...

No way I can do things right even repent or confess or being honest...

The Wednesday Blues Part 2...

2011-06-15T23:42:00.003+08:00

Ok... now, here I go again... today was a semi productive day as I took some time of from work. I went to the tailor to get my suit fitting done, visited the jeweller to get my rings confirmed and Reliance to find out more info for my honeymoon trip. As with the semi-productive day, I was slapped with a string of bad lucks. It started out with the summon for illegal parking (it was only 5 mins) followed by the inconsistancy of the price for the rings quoted earlier and lastly no suitable dates for the honeymoon. Anyway, thanks to mom, she reminded me of another tour agency, Parlo Tour and I do recalled that I have a friend working there. So, 1 out of 3 is still better than nothing...

Now I hope this stupid blog uploads this post...

The Wednesday Blues Part 1

2011-06-15T23:40:00.001+08:00

It was few minutes ago that I wanted to type today's activity just to be gone due to error of loading the blog...

Android way...

2011-06-15T23:34:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I am thankful for choosing the Android path instead of joining the ranks of Apple's iPhone. For example at this very moment, the stupid Unifi is not working and I'm using my HTC as my wifi hotspot for my computer's internet... now beat that Apple!!!

Romans 12:2

2011-06-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will.

And so the rabbit hole goes deeper...

2011-06-12T00:33:00.001+08:00

Yes... it's quite interesting in the tired and confused state of mind, you type whatever comes to mind. But strange thing is I still heard Jesus speaks to me in a soft and small voice. I guess it's not been crazy but it's the reaching out part.

Thought of the night...

2011-06-11T23:54:00.003+08:00

I wonder... do I day dream too much. Do I talk to myself too much. Do android dreams of an electric sheep? Whooahh... wrong channel...

Sometimes I amused myself this way. I guess here is more private that FB.

Focus...

2011-06-11T23:52:00.001+08:00

Focus.... focus... inner peace... inner peace... *breathe*

Lo and behold... kung fu teddy bear

Recapping info for the week...

2011-06-11T23:46:00.004+08:00

1. Follow up on suit fittings...
2. Monitor cabinet fabrication process and any alterations.
3. Make sure contractor gets the right tiles and the concrete area.
4. Follow up on the process of the invitation card.
5. Follow up on the rings quotations.
6. Digest bed designs and choices...

Things I need to do:
1. Call caterer.
2. Meet up with wedding coordinator.
3. Do my homeworks
4. Get more quotes and lists of things for car decos and pressies.
5. Drink more... aqua pura.
6. Fast weekdays of lunchs after fittings.
7. Spend more QT
8. Stop typing and get some rest for tomorrow for tomorrow will be the gift of the day... thx Panda

That's why they call it the blues...

2011-06-11T23:43:00.002+08:00

I guess I drank a couple of glasses of Chivas for Kelvin's wedding. Feelin' a bit sedated or calm down. I guess I see why people resort to alcohol for trouble free.

Receiving end...

2011-06-11T09:37:00.003+08:00

Most of the time I am on the receiving end either from the other party or my side. All the blame has been placed on me due to misinformation and someone always turning it around. Someone so good with words can even move mountains. I'm always on the receiving end and I'm paying the price now.

Wasted to much time...

2011-06-11T01:24:00.002+08:00

That's the problem of putting ample of time and not utilizing it well.

(sound of the back of my head)
Have you live life to the fullest? You surely should think what is important to you.

...Yeah, it's important alright but this carefree attitude... hmmm...

*Drats! Still talking to myself after all these years*

It's not over yet...

2011-06-11T01:20:00.002+08:00

After been convinced to do my esophagus treatment prior to my wedding so that there will be less complications. Well, seems my body prove everyone wrong. I'm going thru the initial stages again. Worried it would be cancerous. Oh well, just act carefree to negate the effect of fear... think positive even it kills your emotions...

And oh, must continue to pray only by myself...

It's a long time...

2011-06-11T01:18:00.001+08:00

It's been a long time since I last blog... I guess I was too pre-occupied...

...

2011-06-11T01:17:00.001+08:00

...

Gaining lost ground...

2011-01-01T13:55:00.004+08:00

When someone did something bad to you in the past, you have ever thought of revenge or things to do bad to the person. Even after few years, I sometimes do habour that hate. But when I received an sms about their love ones passed away, you throw away all hates and you send your best and warmest heartfelt condolences as well as prayers and blessing... It's not easy as a normal person but it's not hard for a Christian...

Just a while longer...

2010-12-09T21:27:00.002+08:00

Just a while longer, dearie. I need to preservere till this month end b4 Christmas. Stress, nervousness, dis-illusion and de-motivation. I must take it all on as my fuel and at the cost of my relationship to fund savings for the preparations next year.
The Lord my God said to me in the book of "BYSID" page 20, question 1... and I must...

Because I Love You by Shakin Stevens

2010-12-09T21:23:00.001+08:00

New wind...

2010-05-30T21:20:00.001+08:00

Spirits in high mode, gear shifting higher, spiritual growth spurts....

A spiral staircase...

2010-05-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

...leading down to the abyss...

Going against it again...

2010-04-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

On the phone and at night... not supposed to.

Girl asked boy...

2010-04-19T19:00:00.002+08:00

... whether there was any love interest. Boy said to girl, yes... there are few targets. Girl said to boy, girl will help boy to achieve his target and will also help to speak on behalf. Boy said to girl, it will be a bit hard. Girl said to boy, why? Boy said to girl, the girl know this person very well and do not know whether this person can be approached.

And so the rest it was made history till we know it today. The End :)

Laling Bird-day...

2010-04-07T01:28:00.002+08:00

My beloved darling's Birthday was yesterday...

Bee...

2010-03-31T02:04:00.001+08:00

Buuuuuzzzzzzyyyyyy Bbbbuuuubbbblllleeeeebbbeeeeee!!!

Wreck...

2010-03-17T01:59:00.002+08:00

Tired mind, constant fuel for the fire... thoughts of giving up... NO! I mustn't and will not give in for HE is good all the time and I will praise him forever more in the face of challenges and obstacles... I will gladly lay my life to win this war...

My spiritual metalurgist...

2010-03-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

Today, Lord I felt so happy never before in my spiritual life. I felt like I have been refined in the Lord's fire and my ore self is slowly becoming a shiny pure silver in the eyes of the Lord. Let me not be tarnished over time nor corroded due to the harshness of the surrounding. AMEN!!!

Tiring Birthday...

2010-03-11T00:44:00.001+08:00

Yup, it sure was...

It rained...

2010-03-10T00:20:00.000+08:00

As I lay my guitar down to rest, it started raining outside...

The problem with...

2010-03-08T23:52:00.002+08:00

B minor and F# minor... need to get over those two to further advanced...

It is not over yet...

2010-03-08T17:25:00.003+08:00

No, it is not even my legs are blown away or I lose an eye or arm... I must not falter nor give in to the devil in me... must push on and gain lost grounds...

*Sudden thought on the battlefield*

3 Times...

2010-03-08T09:56:00.001+08:00

Luke 22:54-60

I woke up...

2010-03-08T07:37:00.000+08:00

...to a yellow and sad morning from a sad dream...

Guitar...

2010-03-06T12:26:00.002+08:00

My mind is filled with worship guitar practice...

Guitar Practice...

2010-03-02T23:56:00.001+08:00

Yup... Feelin' that stingy pain at the tip of my fingers...

Tidying up...

2010-02-27T23:03:00.001+08:00

Filing up 3 years of statements and what so ever... next(dunno when), start packing up my room bit by bit... need boxes though *sigh*

Humming a tune...

2010-02-27T12:54:00.000+08:00

Will your system be alright, When you dream of home tonight?
There is no message we're receiving, Let me know is your heart still beating...

New Year Reflection...

2010-02-18T01:31:00.000+08:00

Many things have been said and shared tonight... good to talk among cousins in exchanging their views how we live our life...

REM - Most Beautiful

2010-01-30T16:06:00.002+08:00

I find it this song weird but quite nice to listen to...

REM - Most Beautiful

(Chorus)
I've found a way to make you
I've found a way
A way to make you smile

I read bad poetry
Into your machine
I save your messages
Just to hear your voice
You always listen carefully
To awkward rhymes
You always say your name,
Like I wouldn't know it's you,
At your most beautiful

(repeat chorus)

At my most beautiful
I count your eyelashes, secretly
With every one, whisper I love you
I let you sleep
I know you're closed eye watching me,
Listening
I thought I saw a smile

(repeat chorus)

Becoming the enemy...

2010-01-30T13:40:00.002+08:00

Something I've reflected while I was driving to CG from work last night and what I would have become if I go on with life as it is, blindly.

Weird Dream...

2010-01-30T13:33:00.002+08:00

I dreamt last night that I was stopped by a policeman and he wanted to check my roadtax. So, I let him.

Now, I was discussing a bit of my experiences while being stopped by police before in CG last night. Don't know what to explain in words how or what I discussed before I sleep, gets in my dream.

And on the other note, I used to have those so-called premonition or dreams of being at that place in the future once in a blue moon. A university friend called it "Remote Thinking"...

Anyway, just a bit of 2cents of thoughts in the midst of working over the weekends with lots of stress and worry. May God provide me comfort and peace of thoughts...

More changes...

2010-01-28T16:32:00.001+08:00

Time is counting down, still more changes and nothing is concrete. I don't think we can even meet the deadline... I shudder to think...

The Killers - Human

2010-01-25T01:31:00.001+08:00

I did my best to notice
When the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind
And sometimes I get nervous
When I see an open door
Close your eyes
Clear your heart...
Cut the cord

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

Pay my respects to grace and virtue
Send my condolences to good
Give my regards to soul and romance,
They always did the best they could
And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye
Wish me well..
You've gotta let me go

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

Will your system be alright
When you dream of home tonight?
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know is your heart still beating

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer

You've gotta let me know

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human
Or are we dancer?

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

Are we human
Or are we dancer?

Repeated Cycle...

2010-01-24T00:13:00.001+08:00

Will it repeat again? Can I break the cycle? Will I be still faithful in the Lord?

Time and time again will tell...

The Lord Opposes the Proud...

2009-12-15T01:14:00.002+08:00

...and gives grace to the humble...

I've heard this verse many years ago from a Christian glam rock band. Hmmm... I think it's around high school period... Surprisingly I can still remember and was reminded of me again from last week sermon...

List...

2009-12-15T01:12:00.000+08:00

Nic has started writing a list for the future...

Nostalgic blast from the past...

2009-12-10T02:34:00.000+08:00

The Chimney Song...

2009-12-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

I've overheard this song playing on my colleague's online radio singing about Santa stucked in the chimney for a day, a week and a year. Quite funny the lyrics...

Too many things...

2009-12-08T00:26:00.003+08:00

In the month of December, work seems to be on the low side but other activities are on the high side. I have a birthday dinner to attend, Christmas related events, wedding on New Years day and CNY plus other things like photo editing and video editing... Sigh... I wished I was more fit for this...

Restlessness...

2009-11-21T02:01:00.003+08:00

It's hard to sleep... my heart feels so heavy... my heart is pumping hard...

My dearly beloved has outdone me and her selflessness has sealed any doubts that ever exist. I love her more and more and very thankful for having her.

Thank you dearie not becoz of only getting me an expensive present I desired but your thoughts and unexpected selfless action has brought this relationship to a whole new level. Thank you again and I love you dearly. ^_^

Well Restedness...

2009-11-09T01:06:00.001+08:00

I pray to be well rested in the eyes of the Lord.

Spring Cleaning...

2009-10-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

Where do I start... hmmmm?

Bumper Kiss

2009-10-26T20:33:00.001+08:00

Bumped my car into the back of another car but nothing serious. Just few minor scratches... I can't blame the driver for the emergency brake because the main culprit was the stupid other driver tried to dart out of his lane. If the damage was more serious, I get that stupid culprit to pay for both the cars.

Temptation...

2009-10-26T18:43:00.001+08:00

See D90... wants D90... dunno what to do :P

Submarine mode on...

2009-10-26T14:19:00.001+08:00

See something interesting on the website. Probably I'll participate hopefully in two events...

Tired...

2009-10-26T07:01:00.001+08:00

Woke up and still feeling tired from last night...

Get a grip...

2009-10-26T00:17:00.001+08:00

Starting to lose myself again... my feeblemind and not rested in the Lord has dragged many down with me... Not thinking right...

:_(

2009-10-14T01:13:00.001+08:00

My love is hurting again... what do I do?

Instant Headtuner...

2009-09-23T20:08:00.002+08:00

Love last Monday drive... every head shall turn to the direction of the mustard yellow ride... Yeay!

Grow strong...

2009-09-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

Is the words for tonight for me to step up from wherever zone I am in...

There's more than just a surface...

2009-09-07T17:56:00.003+08:00

I have this gut feeling ever since everything started. Stories do not match or certain plot or action contradicts it's story. I have to dig deeper in order to find the very root of it. The kin is my only lead... I pray I am not too late in my ever slow pace... damn this body of mine...

Death row with the firing squad...

2009-09-07T17:49:00.002+08:00

Yes... I get that sometimes once in a while and now for no real solid reason. No appeal nor pardon, just mindless trigger happy shooting. God have pity on my not rested soul and slow brain processing...

Gassed to death...

2009-09-07T02:26:00.001+08:00

I may as well kill myself while sleeping.... damn those mozzies...

Still awake...

2009-09-07T02:19:00.000+08:00

No peace for the troubled mind... well, me just plain nocturnal... gotta get some shut eyes...

And here it comes again...

2009-09-06T23:37:00.003+08:00

Yes, getting snapped at because I don't think quite enough to know what everyone wants to hear from me. Doing my best to stay positive and rubbing it on other people so that it negates the opposite of it. I feel and hear all kinds of negative energy bouncing off people... my bro, my cgl, my colleague and my loved one. My heart wants to give up and take a suicidal nose dive into yes-man mode again. But the one friend closest to my heart has constantly reminded me the purposed of my existence even when I am at mostly disadvantage in my thoughts and actions. I will continue to fight this new battle, not with my old enemy but with people who are the spokes in the wheel of my life. Yes, another lonely night of blabber on my notsonicetohearblog after being abruptly cut off in cyberspace but it's all the same after a few times.I let the emotions in my fingers do the time instead of letting my brain do the real thinking as it hurts already as it is.

Anyway, as my head starts to take control of the fingers, I continue to thank the Lord again(where I have forgotten to put it in the prayer request) for the certain outstanding feat in the house of the Lord where people under my command are at number disadvantage and to put more fuel on the fire, couple more unable to show up. But I do bless my those little lucky stars that this team manages to keep things afloat even in dire straits. I feel the God wants me to take up leadership again after so many years I've given up on it knowing it's hard to bare failures and wanting a carefree life... this will be another story I have to tell another time for now, my fingers are in control now and the blog is beginning to sound senseless again.

Counting down...

2009-07-18T12:25:00.001+08:00

And the downhill battle is coming to an end...

God's Testing Me...

2009-07-16T23:16:00.001+08:00

Again and again so I decided to do quiet time for tonight...

It's 3am...

2009-07-16T03:06:00.000+08:00

And I am still up...

Continuous Growth...

2009-07-11T09:00:00.001+08:00

And prayer towards our goals and future...

Better Man?

2009-07-05T01:29:00.001+08:00

Why call 2nd best man where best is meant to be one? The new terminology(or chim-inology in manglish) I've created would be the better man :P

Time and time again...

2009-07-02T01:08:00.000+08:00

I continue to build a perfect flaw instead of realizing...

A milestone...

2009-07-01T14:53:00.001+08:00

A milestone rather than the later... now we both know each in depth, what will the next step be...

Not really the last entry...

2009-07-01T07:42:00.001+08:00

John 21:17

Floating in my mind whole night?

Broke my oath of silence here...

2009-07-01T07:10:00.002+08:00

Finally, what I have been protecting from coming to light... feels like it's over. Since the last entry, I tried not to share my thoughts here thinking it was the best. The rollercoaster ride I've taken of my life is still the same from the last. Real truth or love do hurts never been this painful for a long time. I guess it's already lost time, money and dream for this part should this continue to flow this way. Anyway, I will leave this as my last entry for now as a milestone in my relationship or a solemn reminder that how hard we've try to maintain and grow together but still fail in the end. May the Lord bless and have mercy on our flaws.......

Brisbane Trip Part 1...

2009-05-04T13:44:00.002+08:00

Finally, I've settled down in Brisbane after 7.5 hours cramped and you-have-to-pay-for-food services. Arrived here around 8pm plus and arrive at my aunt's place about 10-ish. Didn't do much since I was tired. Just eat, chat and sleep.

The Word of Last Week...

2009-04-28T17:12:00.001+08:00

"As springy as a spring chicken". I don't know how Andrew thought up such a phrase...

Far away...

2009-04-28T11:09:00.005+08:00

Feeling so distance away... every single day... drifting further away from...

Home-E

2009-04-26T00:31:00.002+08:00

Home-E went very well with the eating and watching but the weather was the only factor which was too hot. I ate and drank decently but the Pug keeps giving my pants a saliva polish... Eeww... Photos will be posted later once I get some sleep tonight.

Olympiakos April

2009-04-25T01:24:00.003+08:00

I've heard of it but do not know about it. Well, I do now. A mini event held at Dream Centre in the form of indoor and outdoor sports. There were board games, badminton, futsal, basketball, castling and console games. I've helped out setting up the place as well as taking it down after the event. And I was the umpire for the badminton games. Feeling a bit tired but happy a bit... Now, more things awaits me over the weekend...

Heat Wave...

2009-04-24T15:02:00.001+08:00

These past two weeks have been a very hot spell for me... Trying to keep cool by staying indoors and in air con areas. Hot... hot... hot...

Time and time again...

2009-04-21T19:43:00.002+08:00

Yes... I am feeling thankful for those who I hold dearly to my life may it be family, friends and the one closest to my heart. And it makes me misses her again...

Plenty of time, plenty to do...

2009-04-18T23:23:00.002+08:00

And where shall I start first? I have a trip just set for next month, a casual job to do maybe after speaking to my aunt tomorrow and so looking around for my next job. On top of that, I will continue to journal, read lots of books and do some art work for my portfolio and the club logo. Ooh, used to said plenty to do, too little time but now it's plenty of time, plenty to do.

Strange but thankful...

2009-04-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

My boss is so sore and upset that I'm leaving and couldn't contained his anger(he's just human, probably he wants to cry but he channel that thru anger... more macho in man's term). My aunt has a lot of work that requires a person with graphical skill. Now, what does this all add up?

Well, I am quitting my job before getting another one. Not wise and risky and I should feel nervous and worry about it. But for some reason, God has given me a buffer that is my aunt providing a bit of job before I get a steady one once I'm out of my current company. This somewhat makes me feel better as I know I wouldn't be bumming around while I look for other jobs. I pray Lord, HE will grant me a job not too hectic with a decent pay and a proper work time so that I can spend time with my love one and family... as well as I can go higher grounds.

One of my favourite ELO...

2009-04-15T21:56:00.003+08:00

This is one of my favourite songs from Electric Light Orchestra that I used to listen a lot from many years back. Keeps putting me in such a mushy mood. But now, it's telling me about something in my life.

Electric Light Orchestra - Confusion

Everywhere the sun is shining.
All around the world its shining.
But cold winds blow across your mind.
Confusion--its such a terrible shame.
Confusion--you don't know what youre sayin.
Youve lost your love and you just cant carry on.
You feel there's no-one there for you to lean on.

Every night youre out there darlin'.
You're always out there runnin'.
And I see that lost look in your eyes.
Confusion,I dont know what I should do.
Confusion,I leave it all up to you.
Youve lost your love and you just cant carry on.
You feel there's no-one there for you to lean on.

Dark is the road you wander.
And as you stand there under.
The starry sky,you feel sad inside.
Confusion,you know its drivin me wild.
Confusion,it comes as no big surprise.
Youve lost your love and you just cant carry on.
You feel there's no-one there for you to lean on.

Taking the fall...

2009-04-15T21:44:00.005+08:00

Sometimes, it's so frustrating that I cannot do anything to help.

http://nicyoongtotd.blogspot.com/2009/03/music-blast-from-past.html

Finally...

2009-04-15T01:27:00.002+08:00

After a long day of work and two hours plus of my boss' chatter, I finally got my resignation letter through. My boss was not pleased at all with my decision in spite of trying to convinced me with a lot of rubbish... some can be useful. Anyway, now I can start looking more fervortly for another job and I pray God help put me in the place you desire me to go.

Resigning is so tough...

2009-04-14T03:16:00.002+08:00

I've just got back from work today. My plan to inform my boss today about my resignation has gone wrong again. Looks like he will discuss with me tomorrow when his mind is not so tired. Sigh... I thought I can get it over with today. I'm so gung-ho to get it done ASAP... I pray to the Lord that my boss understands my reason of leaving plus I pray that I will be able to rest a little before I find another job to move on...

Thankful...

2009-04-13T01:13:00.002+08:00

I like to thank my friend Adeline and Amy for sharing and advising me about something I would not understand as a man. Praise the Lord for such friends.